Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Words and I

I’ve had this blog for over a year now and was thinking about it. More in terms of why write. I’ve always written, in some way or the other. Have always enjoyed putting pen to paper and putting down my thoughts that have been swirling in my head at that particular moment.

Words have been friends, and man, there’ve been so many of them. Not one getting jealous of other, rather, they bring out the best in each other, offsetting each other brilliantly, and bringing out so many of my moods. I can be pensive, naughty, flirtatious, angry, lonely, sad, happy and they project that. They make me look smart and intelligent and thoughtful and caring. No wonder they are my playmates and I am so happy to acquire more of them.

And yet there are times when words fail me. I do wonder if it's the words failing me or me failing them. Because they are there as usual, it’s just that I feel myself unable to use them. Whose fault is it then if all I can say to something is dunno.

I started this blog because I needed a method to my madness. While the insanity has only increased, the method still eludes me. I still cannot just decide to write something and then write it. It has to be an inspired moment and only when the words all come together in a thought in my head can I write them down. That's my first draft. Then it gets typed. Some times, as is the case now, it gets typed directly. Then a spell check and sometimes that's all it takes to post. A spell check.

So here I am writing about my friends, hoping to rein them in. Have them more at my command than they are at the present moment and continuing a lifelong association that has been an enjoyable experience


Apy said...

heeehahahahha.. Apy frsht aa gaya

My case is totally opposite... They always ditch me when i need them the most and i just end up fumbling.. looking fr the right words to express myself..

cheti said...

this is probably one of the most confused blog from you !!! the written words are nice !! the thought behind them is so vague ! basically :

What the heck was that ? I have no clue what you are talking about ! Where does all this come from ?